in the mood for anything...

last night i had a chat with an old friend...
she said she wanted to ask me something, i said go ahead and ask.
she asked if i was or am in love from the period of our first meeting until today
i know what she was hinting at-- i couldn't tell her that i was
she and fwenk are close friends--they treated each other like brother & sister.
instead i told  her a lie--told her i can't be in love-- my heart is shattered, i have just broken up with my bf and my life was falling apart.
i'm not sure if she believed me or not--someday she will find out
but right now i am not ready to tell her.

i cannot explain my feelings--sometimes i think i am abnormal
i'm supposed to be feeling numb after my heartache but
i met fwenk and i felt alive
it wasn't love on a rebound. it was something else.
he was special, and he always will be

i know she knows how i felt
she just want to confirm it
i refuse to take the bait
i'll tell her in my own time

just hung up the fone when i noticed this weird hazy atmosphere at the office--i wonder if my eyes are failing me, or something strange is going on! and there's that awful smell too! I asked everyone if it's just my eyes or is it blurry inside--yeah true enough, it was hazy not blurry coz some idiots at the ground floor decided to fog the area without considering the occupants on the upper floors! what the hell were they thinking? are we some kind of giant mosquitoes that they're trying to exterminate? geez! of all the stupid things one can make, this is by far the dumbest! who, in their proper frame of mind, would actually do fogging on a working day? oh well, perhaps not everyone is "gifted" with the not so common common-sense. The building manager should be sacked for being so irresponsible. I have every reason to be agitated, i am still nursing my lungs back to health, and now i am inhaling a very powerful chemical. it's like killing myself slowly--

i had to blog about it, can't get this this song out of my head--actually i'm going gaga humming this song in my head--arghhh talk about LSS or the last song syndrome. After our class last saturday, we decided to make a pitstop at the salon and had our nails done, i ended up having foot spa (geez) and ruining my budget. Faye and I had coffee after and lingered a bit for a little chit-chat. She started talking about what's being played on Y101 friday gold rush and she's telling me about this song--the title didn't really registered, it sounded so alien when she recited the lyrics hehe but when she hummed it i was kinda shocked coz i didn't realize it was heart who sang the song--honestly i can only remember 1 song ever sang by her, but of course i am lousy at remembering titles--let's just say titles of the songs & artists are blurry to me. So as not to forget it again, i am posting it on my blog--i kinda like this song way back then hmmm, now it got me thinking though, wouldn't it be nice if i sing this song to someone? if only....

All i wanna do is make love to you
It was a rainy night
When he came into sight,
Standing by the road,
No umbrella, no coat.
So I pulled up alongside
And I offered him a ride.
He accepted with a smile,
So we drove for a while.
I didn’t ask him his name,
This lonely boy in the rain.
Fate, tell me it’s right,
Is this love at first sight?
Please don’t make it wrong,
Just stay for the night.

All I wanna do is make love to you
Say you will
You want me too
All I wanna do is make love to you
I’ve got lovin’ arms to hold on to

So we found this hotel,
It was a place I knew well
We made magic that night.
Oh, he did everything right
He brought the woman out of me,
So many times, easily
And in the morning when he woke all
I left him was a note
I told him
I am the flower you are the seed
We walked in the garden
We planted a tree
Don’t try to find me,
Please don’t you dare
Just live in my memory,
You’ll always be there

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew
All I wanna do is make love to you
I’ve got lovin’ arms to hold on to

Oh, oooh, we made love
Love like strangers
All night long
We made love

Then it happened one day,
We came round the same way
You can imagine his surprise
When he saw his own eyes
I said please, please understand
I’m in love with another man
And what he couldn’t give me
Was the one little thing that you can

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew
All I wanna do is make love to you
Come on say you will, you want me too

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew
All I wanna do is make love to you
Say you will baby, you want me too

All night long
All night long
All night long
All night long

All I wanna do
All I wanna do
All I wanna do
All I wanna do
All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew, yeah

i miss blogging here! mindsay is so far the best blogsite for me. if only that idiot marlon hadn't blocked this site at the office, i could have updated this site every single day... got a lot to blog about but just don't have the time... maybe i need a few bottles then when i'm wasted then i'd go online and blog all night... hmmm sounds like a great idea