in the mood for anything...

i dunno i guess my heart's not just light these days~ after that embarassing incident, where i got my backpack stolen coz i left it on the railing of the oval--everything's not just right! i know people behind our backs are talking or commenting on how stupid we were, and how dumb! but i couldn't care less about what people say, but it matters to me how my friends reacted. i dunno maybe i am just being over-sensitive on the issue but i hate when deep down i know some friends just don't care, the kind you think were your closest. That the best expression you can get is "oh my god" and then didn't even bother to offer some words of encouragement, not that you need one but of course when you are faced with such ordeal, you need all the support you can get, no matter how stupid your actions were. But i am glad though, coz i found out who my true friends were--such a pity that i have to discover it in this kinda situation.

i have to admit that i am hurt~ they best thing for me to do right now is keep my distance til i could prove that i just misunderstood them, and that i was too caught up with my own problems that i forgot they have problems of their own too. I guess i'm not just good at pretending-i don't think i can stand talking or having fun hanging out with them when deep down i know my heart's bleeding.